10 wishes for the day

1.  sana maagang dumating ang amo ko para maaga niyang mabigay ang sweldo, para makabili na ko ng yosi (ilang oras na lang, mangangatog na ko).  isa pa, kung maaga siya at feel nya palang dumaldal nang walang humpay, maaga din siyang matatapos.

2.  sana makaalis ako dito ng ala-siete impunto

3.  sana hindi ako maligaw (sa paghahanap ng Niven Road) mamaya.

4.  sana hindi ako kabahan

5.  sana hindi ako ma-tanga

6.  sana biglang bumalik ang self-confidence ko para performance level ang arrive  (haha!)

7. sana ito na… para may konkretong hinaharap na ko bago matapos ang linggo

8. sana may matanggap akong mga good news bago matapos ang araw

9.  sana walang magka-swine flu sa ni isa sa amin sa bahay, dahil i can’t afford to get sick, mah.

10. hmm… tama na muna sa akin ang 9 ngayon, sa’yo na ang wish na ‘to, repa

decisions, decisions…

i’m facing yet another mind-boggling crossroad and i’m only given the weekend to think things through

i’m in dire need of an enlightened decision, and so aside from just driving myself crazy weighing pro’s and con’s, i’m consulting sensible & trustworthy friends. i’m also browsing the web for “signs” and horoscopes (BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! “what’s with Scorpio’s and horoscopes,” sabi nga ng team mate ko sa CVG dati).

anyway, my one and only colleague saw me reading my horoscope today. she just smiled. she’s a free thinker, and has claimed countless of times that she doesn’t believe in anything (luck, religion, etc.)

“I have no one to pray to for money,” she jests.

so when i asked her earlier if she never, even once, looked into her horoscope, she said, “No. I don’t believe in things like that. I only believe in opportunity.”

Oha! Good point! Di naman pala siya blur lagi

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also, she doesn’t want me to get sick or mad at G. Baba.  “I will be lonely lah…”

sweet.

i feel so…

tired.
 
 
 
 
 
‘di

ko

alam

kung

bakit.

grrr…

hello? yes?!

this past week, dalawang beses nag-appear ang “writer chelot” sa Search Engine terms chu ng dashboard ko.   naka-ilang beses din nag-appear ang ‘diwanglaya’ at ‘chelot’.  pero, maski hindi lang naman ako ang chelot sa buong mundo, i have an idea who this person is.  kasi kanina, may nagclick ng particular category (hindi ko na sasabihin kung ano) and browsed through its entire content.

ang masasabi ko lang ay…

hahahahaha!!!

kung ikaw ang babaeng kuto, puwede ba, huwag ka nang mainsecure dahil wala kang magagawa, mas-exciting talaga ang buhay ko kesa sa buhay mo.  isa pa, KEBS na ko sa’yo/inyo!  at kapag nilabel ko nang friend, friend na lang talaga yun.  HELLO?!! move on!

but h’well, if i’m wrong, magpakilala ka naman, friend.

diba?

this was the song in my head this morning…

A, you’re adorable

B, you’re so beautiful

C, you’re a cutie full of charms

D, you’re a darling

E, you’re exciting

F, you’re a feather in my arms

G, you look good to me

H, you’re so heavenly

I, you’re the one I idolize

J, we’re like Jack and Jill

K, you’re so kissable

L, is the love light in your eyes

M, N, O, P

I could go on all day

Q, R, S, T

Alphabetically speaking: “You’re OK”

U, made my life complete

V, means you’re very sweet

W, X, Y, Z

It’s fun to wander through the alphabet with you to tell you what you mean to me

‘A’ — You’re Adorable recorded in 1948, by Buddy Kaye, Fred Wise, Sidney Lippman, and later Perry Como.

i remember singing this song with my niece Bien when she was a toddler.

ang romantic ng song na ‘to, actually.

diba?

some things i shouldn’t say

it’s hard when you think of something and just can’t say it.  this may be the worst thing you’ll hear from me, ever.   i mean, i know that i can be really mean, specially when i talk about people i despise (well because they deserve it.  i believe i’m entitled to hate them because they’re more evil than i am. haha), but this is just not right.  but i can’t stop thinking about it.  i have to spit it out…

argh!!!

i’m starting to hate old people

those who are in their late 60’s, 70’s who keep wandering around.  because every morning, i have to ride the bus to work, and travelling time usually takes more than 45minutes instead of just 30 because of them.

they booooarrrrrrrrrrrdd… ask the driver, “chekwa, chekwa, chekwa, chekwa, chekwa…” directions to this and that and “where is this bus going again?  where again? where? again, where ah?” and “chekwa, chekwa, chekwa,chekwa…” then they find, search, look, dig around or walk around in circles (like they were playing Trip to Jerusalem) for a seat.  then they,”SIGHHHH…” too loud and heavy as if they’re exhaling grains of earth.

after that, they cough their lungs out without covering their mouth or sneeze (more like spit on your face, because they don’t bother covering their noses too), and relax inappropriately.  as in, way. too. much.

earlier today, i was sitting across an uncle who, after seating himself, put his feet up the seats in front of him, and slouched like a sloth while excavating something monstrous out of his nostril.  kaloka!!! when i looked at him, he looked back nonchalantly as if saying, “what’s wrong, mah?”

if i could, i would’ve told him off, “is this an extension of your flat?  are you going to wipe those seats with anti-bacterial wet towels before you get off the bus?  if you don’t mind, can you please put your booger back up your nose or just eat it if you want,” or, “are you the swine flu personified?”

but this isn’t my territory, wattt?  cannot tell of a highlander, no.

why can’t these people just stay home?!  haven’t they been around the streets for quite a long time now?

i’m so evil.  pero kasi, e!!!

———-

i’m waiting for something to happen.

let’s channel it, shall we?

i just have to have this new ***

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i guess that’s it, for now.

gloves

i woke up from a dream the other day remembering every detail so clear.  i was trying on gloves with my niece which is weird, because i live in the tropics where there would never be a need to wear them.

anyway, i was trying on these beautifully knitted blue gloves with little white polka dots, and what made them interesting is that the clasps weren’t at the wrists.  they were at the base of the thumb, between the thumb and index finger.  so the gloves didn’t cover the entire hand, just most of it, like when another hand does when you hold hands with someone.  it’s like a part of a costume really, and although i don’t know what outfit to wear it with i really wanted a pair.  tirelessly, i tried one pair after another searching for the perfect fit.

weird.

that’s how dreams usually are.  especially when one scene jumps to another, and they don’t really make sense at all.  but then after a while, i figured, it does make sense.  because before this scene, i was trying to hold your hand.

yuck!

runaway train pa pala yung huli kong entry.

argh.

subukan kong magblog bukas

Runaway train

eto naman ang narinig ko kanina papuntang banyo.

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn’t even sleep
So many secrets I couldn’t keep
Promised myself I wouldn’t weep
One more promise I couldn’t keep

It seems no one can help me now
I’m in too deep
There’s no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I’m neither here no there

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life’s mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin’ in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don’t believe it

Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I’m neither here no there

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin’ at the rain
Little out of touch, little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train never comin’ back
Runaway train tearin’ up the track
Runaway train burnin’ in my veins
Runaway but it always seems the same

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gusto ko maging runaway train, pero bago ‘yun, meron muna akong mga sasapakin.

eto ang kantang sumalubong sa umaga ko

mula nang mapadpad ako dito, nawalan ako ng choice sa napapakinggan kong mga kanta (dahil wala akong headphones. oo, hanggang ngayon. haha!).  ayus lang kasi may radyo naman dito sa opis namin (haha. nagbablog pa rin habang nasa opis), at kadalasan, sa English na station naman naka-tune (except kahapon.  tangina. gago tong katrabaho ko. pinagtripan ako.)

anyway, ‘di ako ginago ng opismate ko ngayon, so balik na sa English station yung radyo.  nga pala, limited ang playlist ng English songs ng istasyong pinapakinggan namin, pero ok naman minsan kasi di naman panay pop lang ang pineplay (except some days na gusto ko na lang mabingi dahil sa paulit-ulit na, “halo… halo… halo… heylooooowwwww!!!”  feeling ko pag nakita ko si Beyonce, tatapalan ko na ng packaging tape ang bibig nya).

eto ang kantang sumalubong sa umaga ko.

Greatest View
Silverchair

You’re the analyst
The fungus in my milk
When you want no one
And you got someone
Through the wind
You crawl
And laugh at burning dunes
When no one else will
Ever see

Now that you know why you feel like you do
They’re turning their head whilst they wait
For no one
And finally I know why you feel like letting go

I’m watching you watch
Over me and I’ve got
The greatest view from here
I’m watching you watch
Over me and I’ve got
The greatest view from here

Mistakes don’t mean a thing
If you don’t regret them
So pack your tactic toes for the winter
Chain a waterfall to burned and withered skin
No-one else will ever see

I’m watching you watch
Over me and I’ve got
The greatest view from here
I’m watching you watch
Over me and I’ve got
The greatest view from here

Now that you know why you feel like you do
They’re turning their head whilst they wait
For no one
And finally I know why I feel like you’re letting go

I’m watching you watch
Over me and I’ve got
The greatest view from here
I’m watching you watch
Over me and I’ve got
The greatest view from here
The greatest view from here
The greatest view

nakakakilig lang ang boses ni Daniel Johns.

kung di mo kilala si Daniel Johns, eto, pakilala ko sya sa’yo…

shet.

hahaha!