you will wither and die at a young age…

yesterday, i smoked one and a half pack of Marlboro reds. i had 30 nicotine fixes in less than a 24 hour period… (i just realized this after buying another pack of 10’s this morning)

…and i’m not proud of it.

an officemate will help me start quitting, she’s quitting too. will do it gradually (as i am heavily addicted and may not survive cold turkey)…

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will limit myself to a max of 10 sticks today (had 4 already and its only 11am. shit!) … 5 the next day… 3 by thursday… 1 by friday. then nil by next week.

will limit myself.

will try to make ’spout’ my new bestfriend as i try to cope…

will not nail-bite…

will take it off my mind…

will control fidgetting.

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all

this (quitting shit)

really

takes

is

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