Chelot Belan is

thinking

of home.

gusto ko lang mag-

WEEEEEEEE!!!

last day ko na sa hawlalu ni G. Baba   at sa Lunes, simula na ng bagong career! weee! weeee!!!

YAY YAY YAY!!! XD hahaha.

“Hello, Advertising.  I missed you…” hahaha!!!

ang saya-saya!

mukhang mabait yung magiging sup ko, tsaka deretso ang English nya   tsaka tiyak na marami akong bagong matututuhan (kasi more editing, more fun din sya aside from copywriting).  YAY! totoong trabaho na ‘to. hahahaha   di na ko mag-o-over facebooking    mababawasan din ang pagyoyosi ko, kasi bawal magyosi ng office hours.  hahahahaha!  makakatipid na ko lalo.  SHETTTT

tapos, 9-530 lang ang office hours!  di daw sila madalas mag-OT (na mukhang totoo naman kasi kapitbahay namin si admin at mukhang maaga siyang nakakauwi lagi)  di na ko late magdidinner! matutunaw na nang maayos ang pagkain ko!  tas kapag feel ko, keri din maglakad pauwi!  wee!!!  papayat na ko!!!

ASA.

at, at, at!!! ang lapit lapit na ng opis ko sa house of shala!  di na ko mapapakshet sa paghihintay ng BS 197 (na umaabot ng 25-30 minutes kadalasan), sa pagtatap-up ng higit $80 sa ez-link ko per month at sa paghihintay na makaupo ang mga lolo’t lola dahil nagti-trip to jerusalem sila sa loob ng bus.  waaaaaahhhh!!! hahahahaha!  yeeeehaaaaahhhh…

weeeeee, talaga! wee!!!

ayun lang

ang totoo…

marami akong gustong ikwento, pero hindi ko alam kung paano ko sasabihin sa’yo.

emo.

magdadraft ako ng something mamayang gabi, kapag hindi ako makatulog… kapag hindi ako pagod na pagod.  ewan ko ba.  nitong mga nakaraan kasi parang patang-pata ako pagdating ng hapon.  antok na antok ako sa bus papuntang China Town mula Geylang.  Laging napapatulala sa bus stop sa kanto ng Upper Cross St. at New Bridge Rd.  i-google map mo ang mga nasabi kong lugar para makita mo kung nasaan ako mamayang 745-815pm.  baka may live cam.  nakablue jeans at beige top ako.  nakatingin sa malayo.

basta.  bahala na kung kelan ko maila-lathala dito.  baka sa lunes,  late next week, o hindi ever.  malay mo, malay ko, malay nating lahat… 

teka, nandiyan ka pa ba?

hello? yes?!

this past week, dalawang beses nag-appear ang “writer chelot” sa Search Engine terms chu ng dashboard ko.   naka-ilang beses din nag-appear ang ‘diwanglaya’ at ‘chelot’.  pero, maski hindi lang naman ako ang chelot sa buong mundo, i have an idea who this person is.  kasi kanina, may nagclick ng particular category (hindi ko na sasabihin kung ano) and browsed through its entire content.

ang masasabi ko lang ay…

hahahahaha!!!

kung ikaw ang babaeng kuto, puwede ba, huwag ka nang mainsecure dahil wala kang magagawa, mas-exciting talaga ang buhay ko kesa sa buhay mo.  isa pa, KEBS na ko sa’yo/inyo!  at kapag nilabel ko nang friend, friend na lang talaga yun.  HELLO?!! move on!

but h’well, if i’m wrong, magpakilala ka naman, friend.

some things i shouldn’t say

it’s hard when you think of something and just can’t say it.  this may be the worst thing you’ll hear from me, ever.   i mean, i know that i can be really mean, specially when i talk about people i despise (well because they deserve it.  i believe i’m entitled to hate them because they’re more evil than i am. haha), but this is just not right.  but i can’t stop thinking about it.  i have to spit it out…

argh!!!

i’m starting to hate old people

those who are in their late 60’s, 70’s who keep wandering around.  because every morning, i have to ride the bus to work, and travelling time usually takes more than 45minutes instead of just 30 because of them.

they booooarrrrrrrrrrrdd… ask the driver, “chekwa, chekwa, chekwa, chekwa, chekwa…” directions to this and that and “where is this bus going again?  where again? where? again, where ah?” and “chekwa, chekwa, chekwa,chekwa…” then they find, search, look, dig around or walk around in circles (like they were playing Trip to Jerusalem) for a seat.  then they,”SIGHHHH…” too loud and heavy as if they’re exhaling grains of earth.

after that, they cough their lungs out without covering their mouth or sneeze (more like spit on your face, because they don’t bother covering their noses too), and relax inappropriately.  as in, way. too. much.

earlier today, i was sitting across an uncle who, after seating himself, put his feet up the seats in front of him, and slouched like a sloth while excavating something monstrous out of his nostril.  kaloka!!! when i looked at him, he looked back nonchalantly as if saying, “what’s wrong, mah?”

if i could, i would’ve told him off, “is this an extension of your flat?  are you going to wipe those seats with anti-bacterial wet towels before you get off the bus?  if you don’t mind, can you please put your booger back up your nose or just eat it if you want,” or, “are you the swine flu personified?”

but this isn’t my territory, wattt?  cannot tell of a highlander, no.

why can’t these people just stay home?!  haven’t they been around the streets for quite a long time now?

i’m so evil.  pero kasi, e!!!

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i’m waiting for something to happen.

let’s channel it, shall we?

i just have to have this new ***

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i guess that’s it, for now.

Runaway train

eto naman ang narinig ko kanina papuntang banyo.

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn’t even sleep
So many secrets I couldn’t keep
Promised myself I wouldn’t weep
One more promise I couldn’t keep

It seems no one can help me now
I’m in too deep
There’s no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I’m neither here no there

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life’s mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin’ in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don’t believe it

Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I’m neither here no there

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin’ at the rain
Little out of touch, little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train never comin’ back
Runaway train tearin’ up the track
Runaway train burnin’ in my veins
Runaway but it always seems the same

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gusto ko maging runaway train, pero bago ‘yun, meron muna akong mga sasapakin.

scary

some scary things that happened to me/i realised recently;

1. almost got struck by lightning yesterday.

i was waiting for BS 197 yesterday morning at the stop before Outram station (at about 920 am), when there was this flash of bright light that hit the pavement about 3 feet away from me.  then an ear-splitting BANG! my automatic response was to close my eyes (of course.  that’s what we call reflex. haha)  the thought that came to mind was, “tangina, sana walang sasakyang/taong dumaan.”

i anticipated hearing/seeing someone badly hurt upon opening my eyes.  thank God no one was on the literally God-damned spot. haha.

after a minute the girl at the other bench looked at me.  she didn’t say a word, but she obviously wanted to scream,”can you fucking believe that?!!”

2. about a month ago, i discovered that i’ve started to night grind.  sorry if i told you about this already, it’s just that i discovered just now that my left canine is somewhat not a canine anymore.  shit.

3. crying like a baby until you almost self-mutilate IS scary for a 28 year old.  don’t you think?  coz we’re too old to be emo, mehn. too old.

4. i am emo.

5. i am 28 years old.

:(

:(

hay buhay,

putangina talaga.

ayoko na.  hindi ko na kaya.  tama na please.

huy!!! alam mo,

kausap ko si chelly kahapon.  more himutok sa earth, more fun na naman kasi ako.  wala. ganun talaga ko minsan.  kadalasan.  pagkatapos namin mag-usap, medyo nahulasan naman ako.

eto yung pag-uusap namin.  tinanggal ko na yung ibang parte kasi praying tips na yun, e.  PRAYING TIPS TALAGA?!! bwahahahaha. o.

chelot_belan (3/25/2009 5:46:38 PM): ano bang mali saken chelly?
chelot_belan (3/25/2009 5:46:46 PM): mabait naman ako diba?
chelot_belan (3/25/2009 5:46:52 PM): bat lagi akong hirap sa buhay?
rochelle andal (3/25/2009 5:47:20 PM): ang lalim ng tanong mo ah
chelot_belan (3/25/2009 5:47:24 PM): bat yung mga makasarili, sila yung hindi hirap?
chelot_belan (3/25/2009 5:47:30 PM): iniisip ko kasi yun e
chelot_belan (3/25/2009 5:47:38 PM): kung anong mali sa ginagawa ko
rochelle andal (3/25/2009 5:47:43 PM): para mo na ding tinanong sa kin kung bakit pinako sa krus si Jesus
chelot_belan (3/25/2009 5:48:02 PM): PANALO!!!
chelot_belan (3/25/2009 5:48:06 PM): NATAWA KO DUN A

rochelle andal (3/25/2009 5:52:33 PM): alam mo di ko alam kung anong mali sa yo o sa ginagawa mo
rochelle andal (3/25/2009 5:52:49 PM): basta somehow, ang mundong ito punung-puno ng injustice
rochelle andal (3/25/2009 5:52:51 PM): hahahaha
chelot_belan (3/25/2009 5:52:57 PM): hahahahahahahahaahahaha

chelot_belan (3/25/2009 5:53:05 PM): gusto ko nang iblog ang conversation natin

rochelle andal (3/25/2009 5:53:10 PM): hindi ata totoo yung pag mabait ka, good karma
rochelle andal (3/25/2009 5:53:14 PM): sige i-blog mo
chelot_belan (3/25/2009 5:53:14 PM): napapaLOL ako dito
chelot_belan (3/25/2009 5:53:15 PM): shet
rochelle andal (3/25/2009 5:53:18 PM): lalo na yung Jesus
chelot_belan (3/25/2009 5:53:22 PM): korek
rochelle andal (3/25/2009 5:53:25 PM): alam kong sumaya ka dun
chelot_belan (3/25/2009 5:53:26 PM): naloka ako
rochelle andal (3/25/2009 5:53:32 PM): kasi nakakatawa naman ang tanong mo
chelot_belan (3/25/2009 5:53:42 PM): hindi ako nagpapatawa nun
rochelle andal (3/25/2009 5:53:59 PM): kaya alam mo ako, minsan naiisip ko wag masyado maging mabait
chelot_belan (3/25/2009 5:54:19 PM): natetempt na nga ko maging selfish e
chelot_belan (3/25/2009 5:54:21 PM): promise
rochelle andal (3/25/2009 5:54:26 PM): kasi nag-aantay lang ako ng magandang kapalit na di naman dumadating
rochelle andal (3/25/2009 5:54:34 PM): parang totoo yung sinasabi nila eh
chelot_belan (3/25/2009 5:54:40 PM): kaso, i just cant do it
rochelle andal (3/25/2009 5:54:51 PM): pwede mong gawin yun

rochelle andal (3/25/2009 6:21:23 PM): wag ka mag-isip
rochelle andal (3/25/2009 6:21:35 PM): yang problema hayaan mong mamublema sa yo
rochelle andal (3/25/2009 6:21:42 PM): there’s nothing wrong with u
rochelle andal (3/25/2009 6:21:54 PM): the world is what’s wrong hahaha
chelot_belan (3/25/2009 6:22:09 PM): hahah
rochelle andal (3/25/2009 6:22:17 PM): magyosi ka na ulit
rochelle andal (3/25/2009 6:22:24 PM): kung gusto mong wag mabuang

ikaw, malulugmok ka pa ba sa kalungkutan kung ganito ka-siraulo ang mga kaibigan mo?

oo?

grabe naman ang pagka-bleak ng tingin mo sa buhay mo! whooo!!! taas ang kamay ko sa’yo.

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huy!!! alam mo, miss na kita…

maging sino ka man.

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

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btw, hindi na ko nag-uunan sa uluhan mula nung lumipat kami sa shala house.  nadiskubre ko kasing pag di ako nag-uunan di sumasakit ang likod ko sa umaga (maghapon). kaya yun, yung unan ko, niyayakap ko na lang.

masarap naman siyang kayakap in fair, pero minsan, naisip ko, habang naglalakad aimlessly around the city; pag nakakita ako ng random “hello, baby!” guy, bigla ko na lang siyang yayakapin.  siyempre magugulat siya, kaya pagkatapos ko siyang i-hug/embrace (haha), sasabihin kong, “i’m sorry, but i had to do it. it’s just that, i’ve forgotten how it feels like– to be in someone’s arms.”

HAHAHAHHAAHHAHA!!!

OMG! natatakot na ko sa sarili ko. hahahahahaha.

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pero seryoso.  miss na kita…

pera.

heee!

ang tagal ng sweldo!!! #%$@#%$@$#@%$!!!

shet shet shet!
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mmm…

you’re a monkeybar

ayun lang

click photo para mapunta ka sa napagkunan ko nito.